BlisS.ful /*\ Inno.Cense

Sunday, July 28, 2002

wow.. it's really been a long time since this blog has been posted... yup it's really been abandoned...
sigh.. so much has changed in just half a year... maybe some good and maybe some bad.. we just hafta learn to continue on.. again sigh.. no one's really gunna see this. just felt like coming back and just.. living my memories again.. charing is right.. i'm the one that always just can't forget something.. the one that will just always remember.. everything
hopefully when i look back at this later on through the years. i can still remember the many great times i've spent with all of my friends and of course continue to do so..
hm..... friends...hopefully we will stay forever.. but with reality.... there is no forever.. no eternity and all that crap... but we can atleast try... just to try and keep the things like this as we speak now. i don't wanna grow old and then go thinking.. what would charing or ken or whoever be like now? would they still remember me? and the fun times we had together? i don't like what ifs... and i especially don't like regretting... just don't wanna grow up!
after this month... there's only one more month left of summer... then i'll be a senior already.. 2 years of skool has already passed by so damn fast... i know for sure the people around me have already changed.... including myself... you ask yourself why? but yet you can't answer.. no one can actually.. you just do...
ok ya.. that's enough.. or else i'm gunna get even more depressed when i think too much.... haha byebyes!
*terminator voice* I'll be BACK!
sigh... haha i can be writing all of this in my new blog if i wanted to.. of course everyone that would read it would probably start asking what i'm doing... so this is the safest place i'm betting on.

whined again at 8:16:14 PM >> Speak Up!

Sunday, December 30, 2001

well since i got no where else to go to. i actually took someone's advice and came back to blogger.
since i'm soo stupid to figure out to set up one that would look half as decent as this one.
yup. you guessed it. i'm baccck! hehe .seems like i ain't the only one here that is blogging.
i have a lot that i wanted and still want to say. but yet. what's the point? it'd be a waste of my time and other ppls time if they actually would read what i would write. sooooooo in conclusion.
i'll keep it to myself like i've always done before.

whined again at 10:35:19 PM >> Speak Up!

Saturday, December 29, 2001

Not in a good mood today.
Nothing is working. ie my tagboard.

Maybe I should put this domain on hiatus for a while, who knows.
I dunno.

@#$%^&

Yes, I'm mad.

}=T

I'm listening to Jay Chou. His songs are gooood. The only thing that's making me feel slightly bit decent.

I've been having nightmares for the last 2 nights for some odd reason. I just woke up in sweat. I can't forget what I saw. The first night, I had a dream that there was a dead corpse found in a pool in my my backyard[?? I don't have one, but.... it's a dream]. I found it. It was soooo ugly and scary, oh my goodness. Just imagine a teenaged female, shoulder-length black hair, dressed in red, floating in water. @#$%^&)(*_!!!!! I was too scared to tell anyone. So I was hoping that someone else would find it and report it to the cops. But noooo, no one does. So I'm the only the one that knows about it. In the dream, all kinds things happened to make me constantly and deliberately go back to the pool and see that dead ugly corpse. >_____< To make things worse, the people who supposedly murdered that person are after me, because I'm the only person that knows and consequently became a stupid witness. I would be constantly be hiding and trying to escape the scary pursuit. It just kept going on like that, and more frightening events continued happening. Such as my front door getting broken down mysteriously. Then anonymous people leaving behind pranks and stuff. I was absolutely freaked out. It felt so real. But then aren't all dreams? I woke up and didn't want to fall back asleep. It was that frightening!

Then last night, I dreamed that my bro and I travelled back in time to the time when my grandfather was a kid. I dunno why, some people were after him as well. So in turn, those same people were after us. I had to go through soooo many obstacles trying to outrun those people, including diving into water deep places, and dodging gunfire. It almost felt like something from out of a movie. I was also in charge of a lot of children who were supposedly my aunts and uncles etc, but as kids. I was on the mission to protect them or else if they get killed, they will no longer exist in the future, which in turn will make me become nonexistant. Since they were kids, I had to always save them from everything, and that completely exhausted and tired me out. Some nearly died. >__________< I was so anxious and worried throughout the whole thing, but I didn't have time to stop, because there were so many people out to kill us.

I have no idea why I'm having so many of these freaky dreams. I think I'm going mad. I seriously am. I should consider seeing a psychiatrist. I need one bad.

whined again at 12:04:35 AM >> Speak Up!

Monday, December 10, 2001

Greymatter @ my domain is not working, but I really need a place to take it out. So much has happened. Must blog..........

I'm really worried.... some sudden incident occurred over the weekend. As a matter of fact, just yesterday!.....
Why can't people think before they act? You're gunna get the whole stupid family killed.
I really hope that everything will be alright. =(

whined again at 9:09:20 AM >> Speak Up!

Friday, October 26, 2001

sigh... this blogger site is so lonely now... no one to blog anymore... i guess my entire will be its last =( .... BYE BYE la hahah

whined again at 6:53:13 AM >> Speak Up!

Tuesday, October 23, 2001

What kind of person would have the guts to leave a comment and be too chicken to leave a name.
Pathetic people.

Um. Lots to say, but I have to to work on my website that I need to create for my Comm Tech class.

whined again at 7:04:17 PM >> Speak Up!

Monday, October 22, 2001

blah blah... school ... so stressful i tell yea... what to do next year!!!

whined again at 9:03:18 PM >> Speak Up!

I'm still waiting for my email...........>< I want my UNIX server now.

Hmm.... I had a ski club meeting today. Should I join or should I not? I haven't skiied in the longest time (since gr 7), and I don't want to spend $120 so that I can end up rolling my way down the hill for 5 hours. Hmm. I'll see I'll see. It's a first come first serve basis.

whined again at 4:25:27 PM >> Speak Up!